biggest mistake of my life.
what was i even thinking? i shouldve just gone home immediatly. but i just wanted him so bad. but he wanted her too much. i couldnt get through that door. how the were touching me and grabbing me. it was so wrong but it felt so right. they were all so appetising and i wanted more. but what was i thinking? when he came back through that door. the look on his face. it looked hurt. i felt so guilt. like i shouldve chased him and talked to him. but i stayed. styaed just so that i could get my face licked and my lip biten. my hair pulled and my wrists pinned down. leaving the room to talk to him in his car was the best part of my day. i got to smile like normal and he looked at me normally again. to see this side of him was unreal. but then when he forced me down,i was really scared. what was i gonna do if he did end up forcing himself on me? i was the only underage one there. everything to this moment still feels unreal. being in the car with him on the way home felt like my real chance. then i let it slip away into thin air. i just got up and out like it was nothing. like he was only someone i could go complaining to. how wrong was that? how does he feel? i cant take it. all i wanted from him was just a little attention and then he just let his friends walk all over me. all thats left to do is to get him to check the friendzone and see that ive been standing there all this time.